so yesterday was my saint day.. for those non catholics out there this may be new to you, but most catholics usually name their child after a saint to commemorate the roman catholic church. I was named after Saint Cecilia because well my name is a musician and well also because ivette is not really a catholic saint name… so my dad was my moms saving grace… here is a little history on saint cecilia…

Saint Cecilia (Latin: Sancta Caecilia) is the patron saint of musicians^[2] and Church music because as she was dying she sang to God.^[2]St. Cecilia was an only child. Her feast day is celebrated in the Roman Catholic, Eastern Orthodox, and Eastern Catholic Churches on November 22. She is one of seven women, excluding the Blessed Virgin, commemorated by name in the Canon of the Mass. It was long supposed that she was a noble lady of Rome who, with her husband Valerian, his brother Tiburtius, and a Roman soldier Maximus, suffered martyrdom, c. 230, under the Emperor Alexander Severus.^[3]

^{Thanks to Wiki for the info above.}

because this one is really annoying me…

if there is one thing i hate the most besides bigotry is being sick! ugh! I have been fighting something since Tuesday and I am starting to feel its wrath coming and eating me up. so feel sorry for me… feel really sorry!

all i really wanna do right now is actually have a good time and prep for thanksgiving with my family and my diet entails…broncolin, theraflu, amoxocillin, and water! yum!!!

i did get to see vin diesel at att today.. so that brought me a smile.. and by vin diesel i dont really mean vin from fast and furious.. but his twin.. cute guy at AT&T, we should hang out!

I hope I can get better by tomorrow because my goal is to watch and relive the 70s with Tony Manero!!!

Gonna go finish reading ‘Push’ and wait to watch the AMAs

for now enjoy Miss J’s awesome new single…

confusion, that’s what I am.

I think I know what I am doing, when in reality I’m always winging it. My characteristics are being a planner and knowing my moves in advance but lately I have been completely surprising myself, to my demise? I still don’t know and I don’t know if I want to find out.

I had been enjoying my drama less life for soo long that all these new things coming to the forefront can be sometimes a little too much to handle and I find myself asking if its really all that worth it.  It’s the go with the flow mentality that I have been telling myself that I want. I want to be spontaneous and frankly not give a damn but I struggle with it. I struggle with what I want, with what I am and with how I actually deal with it.

I probably don’t make much sense right now because it has been consuming my mind for some time and I am trying to figure out what to do, whether to end it, continue it or just forget it.

All I need is some clarity.

as stevie wonder said… is really the kind of lover i need?

let’s reflect on this…………reflected enough? okay

so i have been busy and not so busy.. i think i keep myself busy so to not be alone so much… i work work and work… is it because nothing or no one is really getting my attention enough to stop?..maybe

about 5 months ago things were not as complicated as they are now… and sometimes i think it’s all been my doing…i was on track to do things, set things up and then.. i really really got distracted…i lagged out on things i told myself i would do and i was getting close to making things happen… and now its all pffff…. gone..

i feel like i have to start from the beginning and make up for lost time….this past weekend i hung out with my brother and we got quite buzzed and i think i told him things i probably would have not and same him to me… oh well…he said he couldnt remember much.

i met a photography lady this weekend while taking a class and it was really good to talk to someone that enjoys photography as well and it totally made me think how I should just do it too… its like what do i have to lose…nothing if anything i have so much more to gain and im not necessarily talking about money but just recognition from other photographers and someone to appreciate the work and find unique to them in the work that i would do…. thats why i want to photograph….

this upcoming week.. i should have some good opportunities to do just that.

currently listening: los amigos invisibles

hoy hacido un dia super bien. Estuve super produtiva en la oficina y mañana seguira siendo un dia super padrisimo!!!

estos ultimas semanas me la eh pasado super ocupada, y bien acompañada. espero poner las pilas y seguir logrando metas, ya sean de trabajo o personales.

I’m such a night owl its ridiculous…. like the great mr. benson

Whenever dark has fallen

you know the spirit of the party starts to come alive

Until the day is dawning you can throw out all your blues

and hit the city lights

‘Cause there’s music in the air

and lots of loving everywhere

so gimme the night, Gimme the night.